todae is the release of my exam results... i'm sad.... as for my lab subjects i'm pretty fine with it... but for my examinable subjects i'm disappointed. again, i did not do well for those subjects that i'm confident in. i realli dunno why.... why m i always doing badly for those subjects that i'm confident in? and i mean bad is realli bad... the actual result is 2 or even 3 grades lower than my expectations....

*one tear slip down my cheeks*

i thought that i'm ok last sem and for this sem, i'm hoping for the same result if not better... esp i did put in the same (if not more) effort this time round... but...... i think back what i did last sem... burnt weekends, burning midnight oil, cut down time for recreation so as to have more time for books.... why m i still getting such poor results? why?! i'm realli speechless now.... i can't accept my results.... i can't.... my hope of an average honours was smashed... shattered.... nothing left.... my 3 years have gone down the drain... onli 1 year left....how much can i change my destiny? studying 4 years getting a pass degree with merit? or onli a 3rd class honours? hahahahahahaha..... hahahahaha..........hahahaha..... haha.....ha............

*another tear roll down...*

befoe the release i still tell myself: yes! i can do it! this is one of the few times that i'm confident! although i'm abit worried but i know i can do better this time round.... dream... its all a beautiful dream that i've to wake up ... hahahhahaa......... how i wish i can still dream on....

AAAARRRGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

i wana be alone.....