today is april's fool, and its certainly not a joke.

its a painful day which i'll remember.

its a day where i've plunged to the valley of my career.



while i'm down here, perhaps its a good time for me to relook at what i've done for the past 5 years. are they what i want? are they what i'll like to do for the next 5 years or even 30 years?

i need to find my directions again, and i'll become stronger than what i'm now.