rejected again... =[

yah.. i'm rejected by MOE again. i think i lost count of the number of rejection letters i received. i'm actually quite confident that i'll be granted an interview this time round as a week before this i received a call from MOE for updates of my current status, what honours i get, when will i get my results, blah blah.., which was wat happened when i last granted an interview. hmm.. so my theory of granting an interview when received a call is incorrect. anyway i've sent in another application and hopefully... *fingers crossed*

now i'm getting to understand what those kena retrenched or retirees feel when w/o a job. its like for all these years you have a job then suddenly you are out of it. its like my case where all these years i'm studying and studying and suddenly this daily routine is terminated. of coz i'm happy that i dun need to study anymore but then the feeling of a uncertain future ahead is scary. i hate uncertainiy. i dread it. i dunno how long i'll be unemployed before i land myself a job. the economy is no good, unemployment rate is high, cost of living is rising...

i'm also quite aimless. my direction in life seems to be blurred. i remember a few years back when i just finished my 'a' levels i have a wonderful plan for my life till i reach 30: i'll go thru NS for 2.5 years, then go university to get my degree. by then i'll be abt 25 yrs old and hopefully i got a steady gf. after that i'll get a job (assuming that the economy is as good as then) and start a family when i turn 28 or 29. however the plan doesn't seem as easy and smooth as i expected it to be. got a few friends ask me "are you in a hurry to get a job?" my answer is yes. i got this financial burden on me. i really need to get a job and i need to get it fast...