i certainly wish i have one of the 3 things: 1) to have 48 hours or 2) to be able to live w/o sleep 3) to be super clever so that i can understand my stuffs in half the time that i needed now.

sadly i have none now.

i can realli feel the tension building up. the pressure is rising. deadlines are shortening. work load is getting heavier as each day goes by. i feel that i'm in a situation that i feel when i was back in yr 3. at that time i took 5 subjects + 3 labs, where each core subject requires alot of time to study and every alternate week u see me rushing for a report to hand up for each of my lab! i almost broke down during that 6 months. nope... 4 months+ to be exact. my days are like living in the eternal fires of hell. every moment is painful, and i'm feeling it now.

ok this is my situation now:
1) i'm behind time for 3 of my subjects.
2) another subject has a damn bloody fucking stupid yet demanding project is starting soon (and its going to take hell load of time).
3) my lab report is coming up soon in another 3 weeks time.
4) my final year project supervisor is adding pressure to me to produce results! not only that, i've to produce a Matlab simulation of one of my work! OMG! worst still, i've to hand up the first draft of my project report in 3 weeks! haizzz... not forgetting that he has been comparing me with my partner (aka ex)... =(
5) .....

i realli need to breathe. a room to breathe. sorry friends if u sms me or call me or ask me to go out yet i rejected or ignored u all. not that i want to but i'm realli feeling very tight of time. whenever i have that feeling i'll behave that way. i promise i'll try not to behave that way as much as possible k? forgive me if i do... sorry...