i agree with the phase "things will happen when you least expected it". alot of times when i want something to happen, my problem is that i'm too impatient and i place too much hope on anything that comes my way, hoping that is for me. because of that, when things don't happen my way (which they usually don't), i'll feel very disappointed, demoralised, irritated, blaming myself for everything..

still remember the time when i was job-hunting, i went for so many interviews, hoping that i'll be selected. but one after another, i failed. slowly i began to lose confidence in myself. later, i realise that every failure i encounter is actually preparing me better for the next interview! a failure is not simply just a failure. as long as we can learn something and find meaning from it, it actually is another lesson learnt =)

the phase can be very passive if you look at it from another angle. it seems to say that if things are to happen, they will happen even if we do nothing. however i'll like to differ. i may be passive in the past, but not now and i hope never in the future. i'll not sit down there and hoping that something i want will appear infront of me. i believe i have to work for it and i'll do my best. really, there is no free lunch in this world, and what i achieve now is the effort i have put in the past. i'll work towards what i want, even if the probability of success is low. because if i don't even try, my probability of success is not even low, its ZERO.

of coz its not easy to handle failures. i believe that the greater the hope, the stronger is the degree of disappointment. hence now i'll not put too much hope into anything i do so that my pain will not be too deep and last too long. what i'll do is to cry, wipe my tears, stand up, and i'll be a stronger person! =)

my life has been full of regrets as i mentioned before, and i'll not allow the list to grow any further.. as what i said before, to fail is temporary, to regret is forever..