its been quite a while since i have a chat with my dad. i'm not really on talking terms with my dad. i think we dun even exchange words more than once or twice a month. no.. its not tat i hate him or we have a quarrel before or wat.. i dunno.. its just so 'naturally' that we did not talk much since i was young. well... perhaps its the image that he is trying to upload: the typical chinese dad that it fearful to all the members of the family.

i forgot to time the duration of the conversation but i think it last for about 10-15mins? its a miracle we talk for so long. if i'm not wrong the last time we have a 'long' chat is when i'm choosing what engineering to choose while i was in yr 2? haha.. we only exchange a few more words when there is a big decision to make in my life. sad huh? i also want to chat more with him but words juz dun come out of my mouth. yup.. i'm that kind of person.

anyway today's topic is on job hunting. well... i guess u all are sick of it but just let me say out k?

dad: u got a job?
me: (huh??) nope.. still finding.
dad: nowadays very hard to find a job. there are many applicants but so little jobs.
me: yah...
dad: find slowly lor.. if cannot find then see if its possible to further your studies..
me: (HUH?!) eh... further studies depends on my results...(i'm telling myself i'm not going to further anymore...)

i'm kinda surprised that my dad is not pushing me to find a job. instead he even advises me to further my studies! OMG! seriously i've never imagined that he will ask me to carry on studying as my perception of him is that he is hopping that i'll find a job. i guess he really knows how bad the situation is outside. maybe is from his cabby friends who have children just graduated and they cannot find a job? or maybe its from his customers who share the info with him on the current job market?

i know that my dad dotes on me alot, its just that he dun express/say it out. i kinda inherited this trait from him. i dun really show my care and concern for my loved ones too but deep in my heart i love them... really...